Thursday, October 16, 2008
Today as I walked into the ICU even before I went to see Shimmy, I saw Brian, our new resident. I asked if Simon's BNP was back since it was Thursday. He hadn't checked yet but would let me know.
As I went to check in on Simon he followed right behind me checking over his papers. He said "oh I'm sorry, it's right here."
It was then, as non chalant as can be, he said "it's 798." I thought I hadn't heard right. 7 and 9 and 8. Down from the 1700's last week.
We're below a thousand folks!!
It wasn't until later that morning that I got the official word from Dr Newkhumet. She came by on her cardiac rounds and seemed just pleased as punch. She said it's not very often that they get to deliver the happy news and once a cardiac patient's BNP drops below a thousand it's official that he's in recovery.
FUCKING AWESOME!!! and a little terrifying but really...we're doing it. Simon's heart is getting stronger, he's growing, and we're on our way to some kind of recovery. We're not in stable land anymore, we're in recovery.
I don't quite know what to think or feel. In some weird way it's the surrealness that I felt when we first came to the hospital. Just a big WHAT?!?! Only this one feels that much lighter and full of Joy.
It's still hard to feel grounded in it and believe that it's not going to go away any second but dang it, it feels good.
PopPop Bernie comes in tomorrow and I can't wait to see his reaction to Simon. It's been almost two months since he's seen him and I think he's a completely different being from who he was back in late August.
10$ says he'll cry, any takers?
So much love and gratitude to all that have read, thought of, sent love, food and healing vibes to the little man. So glad to have you with us.